I am finally adjusting to the "mommy" schedule. Before Ava was born people kept telling me to get as much sleep as I could before she arrived, then when she arrived they told me to make sure that I slept when she did. Well, we had numerous guests the first 3 weeks that Ava was home, sleeping when she did? I think not. I was an emotional wreak, I felt like I just could not get myself together. I cried a lot and was always exhausted.....wonder why. As the guests fizzled out and Josh started back to school I didn't see any reason why I couldn't sleep when Ava did and stay in my pajamas all day. I was able to do this for about a week and then I was ready to get Ava onto a schedule so that I could get myself back together before heading back to work in a couple of weeks. Schedule? yeah, right. Newborns don't have a schedule, they make one and it is completely unpredictable. The past few nights have been great though, Ava has slept for 6 hours at a time. I think she is getting the hang of things. It has been so great that after Josh left for school this morning, I was able to take a shower, fix my hair and get dressed, in something other than yoga pants.
I love my new lifestyle of being a mom, there is nothing else in the world like it. I have learned new things about myself. How much stress I can truly handle. Just how little sleep you can get and still function. I have a new purpose. The hardest thing ever is having the nagging realization in the back of my head that soon I will have to go back to work.
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